Ask and you shall receive. I’m not going to lie. For three months, it’s been sort of nice just focusing on the day to day, dreaming about just having one little baby to take care of next year, paying off our debt, and otherwise enjoying drama-free life.
You have to remember that I spent four months of this year believing that I would be having four kids at the same time. I started off 2012 adopting two kids, then we added a third in March, and by May, we were pregnant. As my friend put it, we were collecting kids like some people collect bobbleheads. It was nutty, people! At the same time, it was exciting. It’s fun to be pushed beyond your limit by a God who can provide all you need. I liked really being able to test his promises and had been looking forward to doing it more so once we got the kids home.
Alas, life has been a little boring over here. We are ready to spice things up. No, there are no more kids to add in 2012 (as far as I know). But, God is back at work – stirring up the pot and giving me way more than I can handle. I don’t have any details or news. I can just sense that God is working to throw another wrench in my life. My sabbatical will likely be coming to a close soon.
Yesterday, our pastor spoke on the fruit of the spirit. Galatians 5:17 says: “For the flesh desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the flesh. They are in conflict with each other, so that you are not to do whatever you want.” My flesh wants predictability, ease, comfort, plans. The Spirit is contrary to that. The Spirit is fighting a war, bringing about big change in the world. The pruning is painful and involves suffering. Rebirth is bloody and messy.
I don’t know for sure what God has in store for us (He never tells me his plans). I’ve been “dating” a lot of different ministries for the past year. I’ve got irons in the fire all over the place – waiting for my cue to jump in with both feet. My heart is on fire for about 10 different issues. Last week alone I went to events on women in the sex industry, the church and the gay community and sex trafficking in America. I’m ready for God to push me on one direction, and I think He will very soon.
I knew it wouldn’t last. Rest on earth is always only temporary. There’s work to be done, and I can’t sit on the sidelines (nor do I want to). God has big plans, and I asked for them.